Saturday, November 24, 2012

Hopes and fears

It wasn't too long ago that Brad and I got married, and not long after that, I found out I was pregnant. I was really taken aback.  We had JUST gotten married and settled in an awesome little apartment in Ravenswood, Brad had just started teaching at a job he loved and I was close to my friends, family and in the city I loved.  I remember taking the pregnancy test and shaking when I looked at it s minute later.  I cried and Brad hugged me.  You could hear in his voice that he was just as shocked as me, but he held on tight.

And then we prayed.  Brad prayed aloud for safety for me and the baby.  I prayed internally for peace and comfort.  We got both.  Philippians 4:6-7 talks about presenting our requests to God through prayer and petition and that trusting in Him provides us with a sense of peace.  I don't know what exactly I was petitioning for in that moment- to wake up and not have any of that be real, to have one of my friends suddenly be pregnant too so I wasn't alone... Who knows.   But I know I prayed for peace.  And the next morning as I got to work, I got a text from Brad that said something to the effect of, "I am SO excited to be a Dad!"  Just that acknowledgement from him that this was something he wasn't sad about - even though everything was about to change- was the affirmation God was giving me about how wonderful this was going to be.  It was also a huge shift in perspective for me, as I began to see how my support system would be something I'd never experienced before- but more on that later.

It's so amazing how the Lord brings people into your life and gives you encouragement at just the right time- just another way that He takes care of us when we don't even have the words to ask for anything. How incredible!


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